November 22, 2008

so, tonight i went to e.g.s. it was so amazing! i felt like mike is really stepping out, in the leadership of the holy spirit, and speaking forth things that otherwise would have been bad timing.


he is speaking utter truth. and it hurts to hear some of it. it basically makes me realize so many things about myself, by conviction of the h.s., that i cant be complacent in the way i am right now. if jesus really is coming back, which i believe he is, and soon, i have so little time left! i need oil!



November 1, 2008

ok, so today, we played a friday night set. it was pretty rad. i enjoyed it because i really enjoyed it because before the set i stayed in egs to listen to the message, stephen vennabal spoke, he sounds like dane cook, so much so that i have a hard time trying to pay attention. anyways, he spoe about the coming kingdom, and how much we lack in understanding right now. it hit my heart, because i am still sleeping. my heart is not awake towards gods affections.

i need more of jesus.

he brought up the devestating statistics:

how many of us have ever heard an enitre sermon soley devoted to preaching on jesus? about his beauty? about his majesty, about his leadership, judgement, about his mystery?

i never heard an entire message about jesus, before coming to kansas city ( this is not a plug for kansas city), i never heard a full 30 minutes of talk just about jesus.

i do not know him, not how i want to. im hungry for him. i want more him.

i NEED more of jesus.

praying and fasting, devoting my life to ministering to the lord, by playing worship unto him, and by serving in his house, being a “watchmen on the wall” (this is not a plug for myself) it is the wisest thing i can do with my life until Jesus comes back.

i wasnt saying that to promote myself, but rather to promote abandoning ourselves fully to god. i am not there yet. i still do the things i hate, and the things i ought to do i dont.

i need more of jesus.

i want real devotion. i want his heart to be my heart, to have fellowship that never ceases with the holy spirit.

i want love that surpasses knowledge. and faith that outweighs any circumstance.